I had been waiting 11 days while he was on the road.

4:51 a.m.:

Finally back

I went back and forth and back and forth about responding. I didn't respond. It was too late. Had it been like an hour earlier I might have considered it.  See in my head it had all been planned out… I needed more than 4:51 a.m. to noon -per say. I had needed all evening, all night, all morning ….and if I had my way … a few days days.

I never fell back asleep.